What A (Lousy) Difference A Day Makes

Yesterday I was on cloud nine coming off the climb the night before. Not any more. Today has turned out to be one big downer.

Last night I joined two friends for beer and food. Things didn’t go very well. First off, the conversation was mostly on topics I knew nothing about so I just drank in an effort to “liven” up. The only thing I ended up doing was getting sick to my stomach.

The three of us went for a walk after dinner but that faired no better. The sidewalks in that area are not build for three to walk abreast so, as usual, I was the third man out and had to walk behind. Other than the fact that it pretty much leaves me out of any conversation, trying to hear and understand what is being said from the back takes way too much concentration; all that trying to piece together the words I do hear into coherent sentences and stuff.

So combine that with a sick stomach and you get a not-so-fast walk. I kept falling behind but their pace did not slow. I only caught up when one of them would stop to look at plants along the way (which luckily he did several times). By then I was definitely feeling like a third wheel. We parted ways when they wanted to go for dessert.

Enter today. My whole mood is down now. I’ve been spending way too much time in introspection trying to figure out what I could have done differently. Obviously, my first mistake was to drink too much with the type of food I was eating. However, how does one enter a conversation they have nothing to add to? How does one take part in a conversation that they only hear bits and pieces of? It’s not in my nature to fight to be at the front of the line so I always end up in the back. Oh well, I'm sure it's all my fault (it always is).

The bottom line, though, is that I’m pissed with myself for letting all this bother me. This was a great week and was going to be a great weekend (I’m going out of town to visit some friends). I need to get my shit together so it doesn’t ruin anymore days this week. I'm hoping that by writing about it I can work through it; we'll see.